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Don't you hate it when someone implies your being therian or otherkin is some weird power fantasy? Or just a fantasy in general?
I see why someone would say this, but only if they're misinformed.
And again, I'm just voicing my own opinion and talking about my own experience, not wanting to insult anyone.
You know, everyone has a shit ton of fantasies. Everyone. I often fantasize of being a stronger, leader-type being. Either a powerful human or a goddamn alpha. But no, I don't see there any power difference between the human and the wolf in general. Being a therian does not make me more powerful. It doesn't make me handle things any better. It sure as hell doesn't make me invincible. Nor does it make me any weaker or dumber as I would be as a full human.
I see the thing with therians or otherkin who have just awakened, though. I used to be... well. When I first really opened my eyes, I could see nothing else. Everything was a "symptom", it's all I could think about. I hid behind the wolf mask and hated humanity and city life passionately for a while. I wanted to escape so bad it hurt. I used being what I am as an excuse for feeling shitty or acting a specific way in certain situations, I lost touch with my humanity and I'm not proud of it. But you know, it's an important part of the process. You need to know where "the wolf ends and the human begins", so to speak. Self-discovery is never a bad thing, when you have the guts to dig deep enough and get past through that awkward "spiritual puberty"-feeling.
I'm not just a "what" anymore, I'm a "who" too. I might be a wolf in a human meatsuit, but that doesn't prevent me from having a personality, my own interests, and I don't really need to point out my little animalistic quirks all the time. Because I am who I am, and I've been what I am all my life (just not noticing it as clearly).
Of course I still have those times when I think about these things more. When things get bad, it's so easy to scream "It's not me, it's just my inner wolf acting up again!". The thing is, you don't really separate the two. People just need someone or something to blame, and in this situation, it's easy to blame your inner self. Which is still just YOURSELF by the way.
But in general, even though therians and otherkin can sometimes get blind like that, it doesn't mean our identities are not valid or real. I think it's more of a sign about struggling with knowing yourself, and in some cases, a power fantasy. But it's a phase. Being therian or otherkin in general usually isn't, but yes, the awakening and that awkward "coming out of the cage"-moments are. These things are so incredibly personal it's hard to talk about them without sounding completely crazy - Especially when you're afraid of sounding crazy, believe it or not.
And from here we get to the question - Are fantasies even actually bad or just natural? Why do others care so much about someone else's identity they might even try to "cure" it?
Why DO the words "imagination", "fantasy" and "belief" have such a strong negative ring to them in this context? Maybe because this is so incredibly personal. You don't get to define someone's identity. Yours, yes, but not anyone else's. Because to that person, it's real, no matter if you believe it or not. So you might as well be nice and not cause unnecessary tears to someone who just told you something THEY find important about themselves.
There's just no damn need. That need to "cure" therians or otherkin is just another power fantasy, which people seem to so despise these days."
Aivan vitun nerokas teksti vaikka itse sanonkin. <3
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